like girl what am i doing here

crash! recovering gently

let's go from bottom to top.

the ugly: i'm losing my hair. HAHAHAHAHA it's my thyroid though and it's solvable. just ugly bc i've been wondering why my hair's been so well-behaved in adulthood... and it's turned out it's bc there's straight up Less Of It.

the nervy: want to rant but scared the person i'm ranting about will see... irrational. oh dear.

the sick: accidentally went through my "toxic screenshots" folder and my heart rate spiked so badly.

the hopeful: i'm glad i'm not in any of those situations anymore though. the only somewhat current one is the moot who is quite eager to bully. mm. that'll be a later problem.

the sweet: having a great day despite the migraines, which is a FOOD problem, i have learned. oops.

the great: going to commission a friend soon. sent them some refs, and soon we'll decide on one. excited. i love them so much.

the joyous: package arrived... got nice comfy sweats. good. that's all i wear, what with the dysphoria and all lol

the beautiful: i wrote 2k words last night. ok off to do chores so i can do more later surely!!! this crash won't last forever, and that alone feels like a weight off my shoulders, although i have to make sure i don't spend too much time writing bearblogs. ah, pity.